So.....

I tried to blog tonight, but I realized that I have nothing really to say. Fail

If I were totally rational, I'd be very happy?

I say this because if you look at the facts, I should be a happy person.

Examples:

I have my own apartment in a nice neighborhood.
I have a good job with good pay.
School is going really well right now.
My family is really great.
My friends are really awesome.

Looks good right? Yet for some reason, I'm honestly not happy. I'm not a manic depressive guy who is thinking about the end of the world either, but something just isn't right.

Wake me up when Septemb....IMA LET YOU FINSH, BUT THAT IS THE MOST OVERUSED SEPTEMBER LINE OF ALL TIME!!!

Well, here are a few updates. I started my new job at Dillards, and it's been okay so far. Right now I'm working strictly in the stock room learning about where everything goes and how it's organized. The stock room is really effing huge, and I've never seen so many shoes before. It's like a giant ladies closet, but better organized, and that's not a complement. The work has been pretty tough, a lot of moving boxes and stacking them. The work can get monotonous and tiring, but it's not going to be what I'm doing forever. The just want me to know the stock room so when I start selling, I'll know where everything is and be able to get the shoes quickly. The day goes by fairly quickly, but my feet are always killing me when it's over. My coworkers seem pretty cool for the most part, but I'm still the new guy, and don't really have anyone to talk to except for my friend Joe. My schedule is really busy now, with school and working taking up 90% of my time. I have Tuesdays and Thursdays off, but I spend most of those days at school. A lot of my friends have gone away to school now, so I feel pretty lonely sometimes. Having so much time to my thoughts at work isn't that cool, because I keep reflecting on things that I really should leave alone. School has been going really well, (I made a 99 on a test this week) but overall I'd say that I'm not too happy with how things are going. I'm making really good money, and my grades are really good, but there is more to life than stuff like that. Hopefully things will become better for me soon.

Bring on the new

Well, after months of searching, waiting, and worrying, I finally have a Job that I'm very excited about. I'm a sales associate at Dillards, and I'm really excited to have a weekly check coming in. The pay is really good, and I'll get to wear suits everyday! It's a great chance to meet a lot of new people, and start supporting myself in new ways. As soon as the money starts coming in steadily and things get calm I can start to get things that i've been wanting (like an iPhone.) School has been going really well so far and that's been really great. I painted a wall in my apartment and it really added a lot to this place. Once my work and school schedule settle and I get into a nice groove I'll start looking into having more of a social life again. I've been hanging out a lot recently with really good old friends, but I'm looking forward to having new people in my life as well. Things have been kinda odd lately with life, but at least something really good has happened for me.

Time to see what life brings me.

Well, things have changed a bit during this week. Me and Valorie are no longer dating, but we are still going to be good friends. The distance was just too much for us, and that's unfortunate but this was the right decision for us to make. Now it's time for me to really settle into some sort of grove. I'm still looking for work, but now i have a few good leads, and I'm concentrating on school and my grades so far have been very good and I don't feel lost at all. once I get settled into a schedule of work and school I'll figure out what to do with my social life, but right now I think it's the best time to get what's right for me and be alone for a bit. I'm in a pretty good place and I'm looking forward to doing things just for me for a little while. I've never done that, so i'm excited. Things are going to be interesting for a little while, but I'm glad that everything that's happening is on my terms for once.