Trouble is a friend of mine.

I had to pay a huge cable/internet bill today. That was NOT cool. I hate that I still haven't found a job, stupid economy. This lack of job among other unanswered questions is going to lead to trouble for me eventually.

But anyway.

Yesterday I hung out with my family for my uncle/aunts/stepdads birthday party. (Not that they are all one person, it was a multi-party.) That was fun, and afterwards I went to Barns & Noble to do some book searching. I would up looking at philosophy books and history books mostly. I wanted to look at some plays because I wanted to find more stuff written by August Wilson, a famous African American playwright and "Angles in America," a fantastic play written by Tony Kushner. I wound up buying two books. "The Race Beat," and "FDR puts Americans to work." (I'm well aware of the fact that I like "boring" books.) "The Race Beat" is about race relations in the United states, particularly in the south from the early 1900's up to the today. It has a lot to do with the civil rights movement as well. The FDR book is pretty self explanatory. I'm looking forward to reading those. Today I hung out with my new friend Loren and her family at the park. We played hide and go seek with her little brothers, and it was fun. After that I went to her house and we played guitar and had lunch. I talked to her dad a lot, he's a really cool guy. It was nice to talk about music and school and stuff with new people who were interested. Now I guess i'm going to take a shower and see where the rest of the day takes me.

Moo point.

"A moo point, ya know it's like a cows opinion. It doesn't matter. It's moo." - Joey.

Get inside my mind.

I've been hanging out with a lot of people lately. That has been a really good thing for me, and it's been a lot of fun. I've made a lot of new friends, and I've gotten in touch with a lot of old friends. And while that has been really great, I feel that not many people really know who I am. Only a few people might have a clue about how my mind works. I guess I wish that more people really knew me. I've been wanting someone to really want to know me. Someone to be able to know how I would react to something, or what I might be thinking. I'm getting a little tired of spreading myself out so much i guess. While i love the fact that i have so many friends, I wish i had more really close friends.

What I really want is that One really close friend. Closer than anyone i've ever had.

What it means to miss something.

It's a strange feeling when you miss something or someone. You can only miss something when it's gone, and there is no exception. It's is possible to miss someone and be in the same room as them, but the reality is the reason you miss them is because in someway they are not part of your life anymore. Hearing the words "I miss you" usually has a somber tone to it at best. Hearing "I missed you" can have a positive tone, and it is often said when someone is returning, and joy is present. Longing for someone or something brings a wide variety of emotions to the table.
I've been missing a few things in my life as of late, but I'm not down about it at all. If anything, I'm confused about why I miss certain things so much when it seems logical that I should not. Sometimes people or things become a bigger part of your life, and when they are not around you miss them more than you'd expect. Does that mean you're weird, or just a wimp? Does it mean that you're normal or nothing at all.? How are you supposed to react when they come back? You don't want to seem too happy, but you also don't want to seem like you don't care. Life is strange sometimes, but I'm grateful that I care about something enough to miss it, even though I know it's not going to be gone for very long.

Kisses mean the most to me, but I guess i'm alone on this one.

Here is something that i've been thinking about for a while now. Why is something as awesome as a kiss so overlooked so often? When did the "kiss" become small news, and uninteresting. Why does nothing become big news unless it involves something more exotic? For me, the first kiss has always been one of my favorite things about being with someone. Thinking about what it might be like, and the anticipation is so great. Looking into their eyes afterward and seeing them smile as they look at you. The thoughts that follow soon after, such as "that was amazing" or "I hope they liked it as much as I did," and the "I hope I didn't suck at that." So much is felt in that one moment. A kiss is not something that I think should be so disregarded, and unemotional. Maybe i'm weird, but the next time I kiss someone, I know that I will apreciate every moment of it, and I hope that they'll feel the same way.

Transformers revenge of the fallen

Holy hell that movie was awesome! I never knew that a robot fight could look so cool. This movie was 100 times better than the first movie. I thought in the first movie that they made Optimus kindof a little bitch, but in this flick he was a flaming stud of epic proportions. I had a great time with this flick, so I want to see it again!

I'm a blogger

Hey! I'm trying out this whole blogging thing. It seems really cool, like a diary but not gay. (not that anything is wrong with being gay, gay people kick ass) I'm going to try to write pretty often, so stay tuned!